• Yesteryear, Strangers, and Adult Braces: Beach reading that left me questioning modern womanhood

    Everyone has an opinion about Caro Claire Burke’s recent debut novel Yesteryear. The novel tells the story of Natalie Heather Mills, a wildly successful tradwife influencer who wakes up one day to find she is transported to 1855. The novel alternates an account of Natalie’s rise to fame with scenes of her struggling to adapt to an all-too-real grueling farm life devoid of nannies, microwaves, and other modern comforts she pretended to be above on her carefully-curated Instagram feed.

    Yesteryear is one of the most ambitious books I’ve read in recent memory. Not only in its content, but its use of form and language. Scenes will cut away to prayers, to memories, to streams of hateful thoughts so at odds with Natalie’s external presentation. In the first pages of the novel, Natalie tells the reader she is “perfect at being alive,” and yet the groundwork for collapse into chaos is already being subtly laid. 

    There are decidedly unsubtle elements of the book, clunky in-your-face lines (“I was heading for hell – I mean, Heaven.”), and plot points that never quite click (why was teenage Natalie, dedicated to her Evangelical upbringing as she was, fixated on attending Harvard?). Yet these hangnails felt like worthy tradeoffs for an author willing to do something strange and unhinged in the sea of disaffected literary fiction. Burke’s writing reminded me heavily of Gillian Flynn’s sharp yet cryptic prose, and multilayered antiheroines.

    My enthusiastic reception of this much-maligned book has me wondering if I am the fool. I’ve seen debates as to whether Yesteryear qualifies as literature at all, or is it pop-prose that will fail to withstand the test of time? Is its appeal rooted in shock value; in liberal, atheist snobbery? And what, exactly, is the book even trying to say about our culture? 

    While online spaces search for a precise thesis statement to pin upon Yesteryear, I do not think that this is a book to be considered through this simplistic, spoon-fed lens. Yesteryear is not a warning, nor it is a conclusory statement – it is a mirror to a reality that already exists. The discomfort experienced within its pages are the same discomforts experienced in our reality. 

    Some of the most incisive moments of Yesteryear come in the form of characters Caleb and Doug – Natalie’s husband and father-in-law, respectively. Doug is a longtime good ol’ boy politician, and Caleb is, essentially, his useless failson. Natalie sees these men as means to an end: tools she can wield towards stability, towards success, towards wealth and power. For a time, she does so successfully, playing puppetmaster until her life is a pristine depiction of white, Evangelical harmony. 

    And yet. 

    Despite the castles built in her mind, Natalie is ultimately an object to be disposed of by these men. Cut off, cast aside, possibly even murdered. No, Natalie is not a martyr or a hero to be emulated – but she is, in men’s eyes, the same as all other women: an object. Her years of planning and striving are so quickly flicked away when they are no longer useful. 

    Also the subject of this summer’s gossipy book discussion is Belle Burden’s memoir Strangers. Burden’s book recounts her 20 year marriage to her husband, and its sudden, unexpected collapse. 

    Burden’s memoir differs drastically in style from Yesteryear – every time I read something about ospreys I could practically hear the editor insisting that the story needed some sort of unifying motif – but the books are far more alike than meets the eye. 

    Strangers presents a universe of glamour not unlike that depicted in Yesteryear. Burden is rich. Extremely rich. A custom, six-bedroom residence in Tribeca, plus multiple other properties rich. Country clubs and private school and helicopters rich. Though Burden does, from time to time, acknowledge her awareness of her own privilege (to varying degrees of success), the lavish depictions of wealth in Strangers are undoubtedly part of the book’s appeal. It’s both aspirational, while also saying “look at how no number of Mongolian cashmere sweaters insulates women from heartbreak.” 

    Burden and Burke both depict worlds where money is a given, and yet men remain firmly in control. Emotionally and financially in control, without consequence for their misdeeds. Burden’s story ends with her own self-discovery and empowerment, but she also feels tangibly fragile. 

    After Strangers, I began Lindy West’s new memoir Adult Braces. The book centers around a cross-country road trip of self-discovery as West reckons with her spouse’s polyamory. It’s no secret how that story turned out: since 2021, West has been in a throuple with her spouse and another woman. 

    West and Burden’s stories bear a striking resemblance in one very particular way: a sense of defensiveness for those who have wronged them. The authors work so hard to ensure that the reader does not harbor negative feelings for what are very clear antagonists. “This book is not about them, this book is about me. A me who just so happens to be reeling from the pain inflicted upon me by one very specific other individual, yet whom I cannot bring to identify as the source of that pain because, despite writing an entire book attempting to excavate that pain, I ultimately intend on granting protected status the source of that pain.” 

    I’m not being totally fair, I know. Burden has children she must continue to co-parent with her ex-husband, and West remains steadfast in her commitment to her marriage and partnership. Asking for anything but what we are given can quickly turn parasocial. (And we can’t have that!) 

    These books, and the relationships depicted therein, strike true at the experience of being a contemporary woman attempting to navigate love, self, and power. To be a woman today is to inevitably be filled with an undercurrent of rage, like Natalie in Yesteryear. To be a woman today is to find oneself shirking and small for our own safety, like Belle in Strangers. To be a woman today is to be on a neverending quest for self-love, like Lindy in Adult Braces

    Women are sold a vision of modern life where equality is a given. We supposedly have power – in all these books, the female protagonists are more successful and stable than their romantic counterparts – but these books reflect the ways in which that power is merely a hallucination. The veil of equity is merely a privilege we’ve been granted, and there is an invisible hand lurking, waiting to snatch it away at any moment.

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  • My 2025 in Books

    This year, I read 52 books.

    The books overlapped and intersected with each other, but somehow tidily added up to one book a week.

    Searching for themes, it’s easy to see my grief for my cat, Torby, processed in book form. I lost her just as 2025 began, and found comfort in every cat-related piece of media I could get my hands on. The Traveling Cat Chronicles by Hiro Arikawa is easily my favorite book I read this year, and I will always be so grateful that it was there for me when I needed it.

    2025 was also the year I grew my Japanese studies beyond manga and began reading novels (for grown-ups!). キッチン by Banana Yoshimoto is one of my favorite books in English, and I loved reading it all the more in its original form. Yes, I still read plenty of manga — including the first nine volumes of ナナ as part of an online book club with fellow language-learners.

    One of the most unexpected favorites of 2025 was Kelly Bishop’s memoir, The Third Gilmore Girl. I understand why she chose to title the book as she did, but Bishop’s story — and her storytelling — transcend the label. Her raw stories of life as a dancer in 1970’s New York City have more in common with Just Kids than the fluff of Bishop’s Gilmore Girls co-star Lauren Graham’s Talking as Fast as I Can.

    Stray Observations:

    • I read Honey by Isabel Banta in a single sitting while camping earlier this year. I can’t remember the last time I did that!
    • The excitement surrounding Heated Rivalry honestly sustained me during a tough end to this year. I adore the show and the books are equally as brilliant.
    • It’s rare for me to downright hate a book. Don’t get me wrong, there are times when I love to be a hater. But when it comes to literature I try to be as open-minded and curious as possible. The books in the “not for me” category are books that I did not enjoy reading, but that I respect nevertheless. The books in the “kindling” category are genuine abominations.

    What Will I Read Next Year?

    Middlemarch. Mostly so I can stop talking about how I need to read Middlemarch.

    . . .

  • “All Fours” by Miranda July

    Sometimes a book comes to you at exactly the right moment in your life. At first, you think it must be a fluke; certainly there will be a fork in the story where the plot deviates from your own reality. But then, sentence after sentence continues to feel like it was constructed personally with your own world in mind. This is a rare experience, and one that should be treasured.

    This was my experience reading Miranda July’s 2024 novel All Fours.

    The first-person narrator is a 45 year-old, semi-famous artist. She and her husband have been together for 15 years, and share a six year-old child, who came into the world via a traumatic birth. The narrator, who lives in Los Angeles, has plans to visit New York. Having never taken a road trip, she decides to drive. She makes it all of 30 minutes outside of Los Angeles before holing up at a motel in Monrovia for two weeks, and setting the wheels in motion on a journey that will upend her relationships, her health, and her way of seeing the world.

    I should now include a caveat that I have not seen/read/experienced any of July’s other work. There may be some other layers to opinions about this book (my own included) that are rooted in an understanding of her broader body of work, but I did not have that coloring my experience of this book — for better or for worse. (As overwhelming as this book was, I am almost inclined not to see her films or read her other stories at risk of damaging the surface tension of this story. But we’ll circle back to that.)

    Back to the book. July does not hold back in her depictions of motherhood, of sex and sexual desire, of marriage. Many of her observations feel like thoughts we all think everyone else is having, but we are all too scared to say out loud. Reading them on the page, hearing them in July’s soft voice, felt like it was changing my life in real time. Raw snippets of conversation would be followed by a metaphor so breathtaking I was jealous I had never thought to describe a sky or a road that way — and then sad that I had never seen it that way — and then hopeful that I could.

    All Fours feels like a spiritual successor to Sheila Heti’s How Should a Person Be and Chris Kraus’s I Love Dick. Stories of creative women approaching middle age, considering the significance of their relationships, their sexuality, their bodies, their minds. Small and insignificant interactions suddenly exploding with meaning. Kraus once referred to her work as occupying the sphere of “lonely girl phenomenology.” Many, many people hate these women and their stories.

    From professional critics to the trenches of GoodReads, you will find declarative statements using words like “icky,” “annoying,” “narcissistic” being made in reference to these books. Many, thinking themselves clever, have proclaimed “these books have no point!” The only solution, therefore, must be the woman’s own insufferable self-obsession, leading her to create such a mindless and inconsequential product. Sometimes I mistakenly think feminism has made progress, and then I peek online to find the most ardent critiques of a book like All Fours have more to do with the narrator’s failings as a wife and mother.

    There is power in these reactions, I suppose. They are in many ways tied to what makes All Fours so brilliant. It captures a feeling, a reality that so many people live with tightly coiled inside themselves. The reactions to the book prove why it must remain inside. Freedom + unfiltered self-expression + grotesque curiosity + uncertainty = bad and undesirable woman. Experiencing these feelings through the page is as close as many people get to living the lives they know they are capable of.

    Though I felt seen line after line, I am decidedly not a 45 year-old, peri-menopausal mother. I am 31 years old and only beginning to grasp the outline of the next stage of my life. Reading the book felt like opening a tome of wisdom of women who came before me. “Here’s what to know” it says. “Now go ahead and don’t be afraid to live the life you want.”

    . . .